When people Wins, I win!

This was a blog entry I typed out on June 24 2008 which I wanted to post back then but forgot:

I have had a very profound revelation bestowed upon me today. Of the 15 years I have been online, chatting with and making new friends, of surfing the net hoping to find the something which will make my life a little bit better, building my life around corresponding with friends and family via emails and lately friendster and onward to facebook, website names which have yet to find itself into the English dictionary, I can confidently say that today is the actual turning point of my life.

I have been contemplating a career switch into sales this past year after finding myself behind a desk full of paperwork in a dead end mundane job chasing the illusive dream that someday I will make something out of this ‘career’ I have landed myself in while ranting about how good the ‘benefits’ are here to my friends and family.

The actual fact is that, behind the scenes, when they turn off the lights at night in the fancy 20th floor with a view of the kl tower, I’m just a helpless broke with pennies to my name instead of the millions of dollars I have been chasing all this while. I guess they were right when they said that the more you chase something, the faster and further it runs away from you.

The power-point slide shows the grand canyon and a little caption below it which reads “The more you plan your life, the more you’ll miss the chance of destiny hitting you.”

Today I found out that one of my friend from my hometown had cancer. I don’t know the seriousness of the cancer, I also don’t know whether she will live or leave in weeks or months to come but I have learnt something today.

That the way I have been living my life has been totally upside down. Today I vow to unlearn everything I have learned about living my life for the past 31 years. I have been conditioned, mostly by my peers to consider this phrase:

“What would you do if you knew you couldn’t lose/had nothing to lose?” or “If money wasn’t an issue, what would you be doing in life?”

Phrases that makes me consider what would I do in MY best interest if nothing was in my way in life. What I would do for myself that will enhance my standard of living… social status… creature comfort… family… etc.

What if I totally change the phrase I was taught to live by and now it reads:

“HOW WOULD I LIVE MY LIFE IF I ONLY HAD 24 HOURS TO LIVE?” How would you life your life if you knew you were going to die tomorrow? Would I still think of my own benefit at the expense of others?

I would want to share everything I know, all the knowledge and wisdom that I possess, with the people I know will benefit from it.

I won’t think of what’s in it for me when helping other people.

I now realize that, often we think more of ourselves than of others. Perhaps this is one of the primal instincts of mankind. To look out for their own above all else. Our pursuit for material gains and creature comfort makes us put up a limit when we’re suppose to consider other people’s welfare.

Slowly we develop a mindset that reminds us often that no matter what, we have to look out for our own first. Our actions and decisions got us to where we are today and we are the masters of our own destiny. Therefore we cannot blame anyone else for our plight or predicament, if we are in a rut and if we’re fortunate enough to be bestowed with the riches and luxuries which life can offer us, we have to count our lucky stars and we deserve everything we have ever worked for and the less fortunate are where they are because they did not work hard enough or make good enough decisions to ensure that their lives are better than what its supposed to be.

Today I shall rid my mindset of all poisonous and selfish thoughts and genuinely care for people. I will think of their benefit because when people win, I win!

I believe! Yes I can!

Maroon 5 is playing on the radio now and I'm feeling totally relaxed on a Friday afternoon. Not because the week is rolling into the weekend, cos it really doesn't make a difference to me anyway. Its a kind of calm confidence coming over me.

A quick check showed that I haven't updated my blog since June, it's November now and that makes 5 months already. So many things had happened since then. My untimely exit from the workforce (yet again) in September and the passing of a good friend in October.

I've just embarked on my Real Estate career and what I feel like saying is, right now the road ahead is still very long. However, I have built a strong foundation by choosing the right company to start out with. Eventhough I have not sold any property yet, I would like to thank Reapfield Properties for providing me with a strong foundation to start in this business (eventhough I had to pay for the training), I feel that its all worth it. I mean, which person ever gained from something that was given out for free, right?

Unless it was a lashing, then the person would have gained a heartache and a plan to get even!

I'm still not very sure about my direction moving forward towards the future, at least I'm taking the first step there and know that all's well ends well (as far as the movie title goes).

All my 8 MBA subjects ends at the end of next year, that is if I consistently take 2 subjects per semester from Jan all the way to July and end with 1 subject at the end of the year. After that I have to plan and start on my thesis. Like I anticipated from the start, it ain't easy but I'm now halfway through it, I won't stop now! I hope that the me reading this 2 years from now when I'm finally an MBA will know that I'm a fighter and not scared to fight all the way to the end. I know that I will be proud of what I have achieved!

By then I would be well footed in my Real Estate biz too. Right now I am struggling so much. My opportunity cost this 3 months I am out on my own is more than 10 thousand ringgit, which is alot in today's economy. I know that I still have to find a job right now to ensure that I can still comfortably drive my car and comfortably live in my condo. That is besides having food on the table everyday and pay for the bills.

I will pull through these tough times! I imagine myself laughing heartily at this blog entry many years from now when I'm financially stable. I know that all my efforts won't go to waste. My motto, "Every step I take brings me closer to the realization of my goals and dreams" still holds true and strong in my mind and soul.

As my good friend Stanley told me some time back. Don't worry about what you don't have now. Whether you win or lose, you will know when you're in your older years.

Obama had taught me that, no matter who you are, black, white, yellow, tall, short, skinny, fat, if you think you can, you can. I believe! Yes I can!