I wanna write what I still remember from my nightmare last night but after more than 20 hours, I don't think I remember much about it already. Anyways, here is what I remember about it.
I was on holiday in Thailand. I'm not too sure where it is, maybe Bangkok cos it did look quite metropolitan in my dream. I was there with a bunch of other tourists, more like tourists from either China or Malaysia. That part I don't remember very well. I checked in around 11pm, it was quite late already and we had to convince the hotel manager to let us check in. It was quite a seedy hotel in a seedy part of town but somehow it was the only one available at that time. It was probably recommended by a taxi driver after we arrived.
Close to dawn all the guests were awakened and somehow gathered downstairs and the situation was pretty tensed. Apparently a few guests in the hotel was brutally murdered in certain rooms and one of the murdered guests was the person who checked in together with me around 11pm.
There were police all around and the whole place was full of people. There were small talk and open discussions among the surviving guests about who the suspected killer was and apparently it was... either the hotel manager or his family members. I remember being surround with a sense of insecurity and as if my life was being threatened by the unknown. To make things worst, there were whispers of the accomplice still on the loose amongst the guests.
Some dream huh? I remember waking up finding my laptop next to me and googling tourist murders in Thailand and the search came up with millions of related webpages. I wonder what in my mind would trigger such a weird dream. I've only been to Thailand twice.
Thursday, November 18, 2010
Saturday, September 04, 2010
Happy Independence Day, Malaysia!
I remember my sister telling me a joke about a time when she was studying in the UK. When she said she was from Malaysia, they pulled out a map of China and asked her to show them where it was on the map!
Living abroad was fun, I lived and worked and studied in Australia and Singapore but the place I love to be the most is right here in Malaysia. Here's a place where I'm not a second class citizen, a tourist, a permanent resident or a visitor, I'm a pure citizen with rights to decide which government I want in the general election through a vote. Isn't that a privilege?
Two days ago I went to a roadside stall to buy some food for dinner and when I started to talk to the food seller, she asked me if I was Chinese or Malay because of the way I talked (with a heavy northern state malay accent). She said she couldn't even tell the difference. I didn't really give her my answer but smiled. This is some of the things I enjoy about living here.
However, I'm very sad to read in the news that, of late, some irresponsible people who have been given the responsibility to educate young minds in this country have been stirring up racial tones by making a statement at a school assembly that Malaysian citizens of Chinese origins are merely passengers (or penumpang in the Malay language) in this country and should all go back to China. This particular person has caused a stir in the harmonious racial relationships amongst the Malays, Chinese and Indians who make up the majority of races in Malaysia.
A multi racial country is not about tolerating each other. It goes beyond that. It's more about living in harmony with each other. If we talk about a united country and then we say we merely tolerate each other, it means that we are simply toeing the line that separates us and the smallest ripple may cause the fragile domino to collapse.
Thus, when we talk about being multi-racial, are we living in harmony or are we being tolerant of each other? To me, being tolerant is akin to accepting one another with a condition attached to it. It isn't fair to think so, is it?
I'm a fifth or sixty generation Malaysian. My ancestors have been here over 200 years and have never ever step foot into China before, not even for a holiday, and I don't think my dad or grandfather has ever been to China either. So, if one day you were to come up to me and say, "Hey, you're a penumpang in Malaysia, get you arse back to China!" I wouldn't even know which province to end up in there!
Lets not let the actions and bad judgement of one person make us question our allegiances towards each other. Our forefathers had fought hand in hand to ensure the freedom of this country from her colonial rulers 53 years ago. Malays, Indians, Chinese and other races that make up this beautiful country, we are all brothers! United we are one, divide we shall fall.
After 53 years of living in an independent and sovereign country, do we feel threatened by the existence of each other? Do we feel threatened economically? Politically? Religiously? or Physically? To my Malay, Indian, Sikh, Eurasian and Indigenous (Iban, Kadazan etc) brothers and sisters, I am a Chinese by origin, but if you strip away my skin color, you will see that I am just a Malaysian. A Malaysian just like you are. I have the right to call this country my home just like you. I have the right to freedom to live my life and take care of my family in this land just like you do.
I eat at places you eat, shop and play at places you shop and play and celebrate whatever religious festivals you celebrate as you are my brothers and sisters. I do not feel like I am better than you or you are better than me, because when it all comes down to it, we are all equal and the same.
We suffer hard times together when the economy is bad and enjoy the good times when the economy is good. Let us never talk about country of origin or skin color ever again, cos when u take out that blue color card that is kept in your wallet, you will see that you and me, we have the same identical piece of plastic and it says, Warganegara. Let us all understand this term and value it.
Sebagai warganegara Malaysia, musuh bukan lah di antara kita kerana kita adalah saudara. Mengapa kita perlu bergaduh sesama sendiri lalu memberi peluang kepada orang asing untuk merealisasikan agenda mereka untuk memecah belahkan kita bila kalau kita bersatu padu, kita boleh menjadi lebih kuat dan berjaya dari apa yang kita boleh mencapai hari ini.
Wahai warganegara Malaysia, warna kulit hanyalah diluaran sahaja. Marilah kita mengetepikan hal yang remeh ini dan tumpukan perhatian kita terhadap cita-cita yang lebih besar daripada isu kekauman dan ketidak samaan diantara kita, kerana jikalau kita sama sama mengupas kulit kita, kita akan ketahui bahawa, dibawah warna kulit ini, kita semua adalah sama sahaja, warna darah adalah merah dan bukan warna lain. Yes, the color of blood is red and it flows in the same color tone in each and every one of us.
Let us be together as one, live in harmony with each other and love each other as if we are brothers and sisters in one big family. The enemy is not among us, why do we need to fight and allow outsiders a chance to realize their evil agenda upon us? It is when we are not united that we are vulnerable to attacks.
I Love Malaysia, Saya Cintakan Malaysia, Wo Ai Malaysia. I may not be a soldier but I love my country, I am willing to lay down my life for my country and I will fight to the end to defend my country when threatened.
Like the radio station DJ said, "1Malaysia is not a dream, it is what we were and can be again." but, nothing grand is achieved without much struggle and sacrifice. Merely trying is not enough, we try and try harder till we achieve the goal set by our Prime Minister. 1-Malaysia, rakyat didahulukan, pencapaian diutamakan.
HAPPY 53rd MERDEKA and MALAYSIA DAY!
Living abroad was fun, I lived and worked and studied in Australia and Singapore but the place I love to be the most is right here in Malaysia. Here's a place where I'm not a second class citizen, a tourist, a permanent resident or a visitor, I'm a pure citizen with rights to decide which government I want in the general election through a vote. Isn't that a privilege?
Two days ago I went to a roadside stall to buy some food for dinner and when I started to talk to the food seller, she asked me if I was Chinese or Malay because of the way I talked (with a heavy northern state malay accent). She said she couldn't even tell the difference. I didn't really give her my answer but smiled. This is some of the things I enjoy about living here.
However, I'm very sad to read in the news that, of late, some irresponsible people who have been given the responsibility to educate young minds in this country have been stirring up racial tones by making a statement at a school assembly that Malaysian citizens of Chinese origins are merely passengers (or penumpang in the Malay language) in this country and should all go back to China. This particular person has caused a stir in the harmonious racial relationships amongst the Malays, Chinese and Indians who make up the majority of races in Malaysia.
A multi racial country is not about tolerating each other. It goes beyond that. It's more about living in harmony with each other. If we talk about a united country and then we say we merely tolerate each other, it means that we are simply toeing the line that separates us and the smallest ripple may cause the fragile domino to collapse.
Thus, when we talk about being multi-racial, are we living in harmony or are we being tolerant of each other? To me, being tolerant is akin to accepting one another with a condition attached to it. It isn't fair to think so, is it?
I'm a fifth or sixty generation Malaysian. My ancestors have been here over 200 years and have never ever step foot into China before, not even for a holiday, and I don't think my dad or grandfather has ever been to China either. So, if one day you were to come up to me and say, "Hey, you're a penumpang in Malaysia, get you arse back to China!" I wouldn't even know which province to end up in there!
Lets not let the actions and bad judgement of one person make us question our allegiances towards each other. Our forefathers had fought hand in hand to ensure the freedom of this country from her colonial rulers 53 years ago. Malays, Indians, Chinese and other races that make up this beautiful country, we are all brothers! United we are one, divide we shall fall.
After 53 years of living in an independent and sovereign country, do we feel threatened by the existence of each other? Do we feel threatened economically? Politically? Religiously? or Physically? To my Malay, Indian, Sikh, Eurasian and Indigenous (Iban, Kadazan etc) brothers and sisters, I am a Chinese by origin, but if you strip away my skin color, you will see that I am just a Malaysian. A Malaysian just like you are. I have the right to call this country my home just like you. I have the right to freedom to live my life and take care of my family in this land just like you do.
I eat at places you eat, shop and play at places you shop and play and celebrate whatever religious festivals you celebrate as you are my brothers and sisters. I do not feel like I am better than you or you are better than me, because when it all comes down to it, we are all equal and the same.
We suffer hard times together when the economy is bad and enjoy the good times when the economy is good. Let us never talk about country of origin or skin color ever again, cos when u take out that blue color card that is kept in your wallet, you will see that you and me, we have the same identical piece of plastic and it says, Warganegara. Let us all understand this term and value it.
Sebagai warganegara Malaysia, musuh bukan lah di antara kita kerana kita adalah saudara. Mengapa kita perlu bergaduh sesama sendiri lalu memberi peluang kepada orang asing untuk merealisasikan agenda mereka untuk memecah belahkan kita bila kalau kita bersatu padu, kita boleh menjadi lebih kuat dan berjaya dari apa yang kita boleh mencapai hari ini.
Wahai warganegara Malaysia, warna kulit hanyalah diluaran sahaja. Marilah kita mengetepikan hal yang remeh ini dan tumpukan perhatian kita terhadap cita-cita yang lebih besar daripada isu kekauman dan ketidak samaan diantara kita, kerana jikalau kita sama sama mengupas kulit kita, kita akan ketahui bahawa, dibawah warna kulit ini, kita semua adalah sama sahaja, warna darah adalah merah dan bukan warna lain. Yes, the color of blood is red and it flows in the same color tone in each and every one of us.
Let us be together as one, live in harmony with each other and love each other as if we are brothers and sisters in one big family. The enemy is not among us, why do we need to fight and allow outsiders a chance to realize their evil agenda upon us? It is when we are not united that we are vulnerable to attacks.
I Love Malaysia, Saya Cintakan Malaysia, Wo Ai Malaysia. I may not be a soldier but I love my country, I am willing to lay down my life for my country and I will fight to the end to defend my country when threatened.
Like the radio station DJ said, "1Malaysia is not a dream, it is what we were and can be again." but, nothing grand is achieved without much struggle and sacrifice. Merely trying is not enough, we try and try harder till we achieve the goal set by our Prime Minister. 1-Malaysia, rakyat didahulukan, pencapaian diutamakan.
HAPPY 53rd MERDEKA and MALAYSIA DAY!
Friday, August 13, 2010
How a Broke Geek Settle his Debt and still Own the latest Apple Products
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Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Rest in between work to post up nice photos!
Oh yeah, thats a photo of mom down there at the Ghee Hiang biscuit factory where we stopped by after our refreshing coconut drink and Nyonya cuisine lunch at Abu Siti Lane in Georgetown!
I tried posting a few pictures of us having lunch at Mama's Nyonya Restaurant but I duno why blogger is uploading it for me. At 2:20am my brain is not functioning well, so I guess I will continue to upload them tomorrow or some other time.
Back to my dissertation work!
Dave
Heaven or Hell?
Someone asked me, David, would you like to go to HEAVEN or go to HELL? This was my answer:
"I dunno. Never thought of that. Heaven may not be as heavenly as they say. Or hell may not be as bad as they say either. Its subjective based on individual perceptions and what religion preaches, don't you think? At tht end of the day there may not even be a heaven or hell or even a judgement day. Whatever someone believes becomes their reality and whatever someone believes isn't doesn't become their reality. So to me, the question of heaven or hell doesn't become an issue cos it's subjective."
I would like to add to that by saying, heaven or hell is a term conceived by early preachers of religion to scare us into being good. In early times of lawlessness, it probably is beneficial for the church (I am assuming it derived from christianity, although I am not certain) to paint a picture of heaven being a place which is blissful and peaceful and pure and if you're good throughout your lifetime, maybe you 'deserve' a place there. It's like a get out of jail free ticket provided you are good.
Another picture they would paint in the mind of their devotees are, the picture of hell, all fiery and painful and people being tortured.
And the ultimate picture they paint in devotees minds are, a day of JUDGEMENT where people all stand before GOD to be told if you will take the gate that is marked HEAVEN or HELL.
Well, the reason why to me it's subjective is because the religion that I practice now doesn't scare me with the notion of having to choose where I want to end up. A side thought: if I am good and I end up in heaven, I may not want to be there cos of who I am and vice versa. The reason why I say so is, heaven may not be what people say it is. It could still be clean and tidy, with people wearing white robes, have wings, a halo over their heads and play the harp everyday and night and eat nice food, but what if I don't want that?
What if I still want to go to the casino and thrown some dices or booze all night long with my buddies? Or go to a horse race and place bets? I may not get to do that in heaven even if I had gained my right to be there.
I prefer the idea of rebirth. Being reborn over and over again and learn from different experiences until I have learn from past mistakes and experiences to the path of becoming enlightened. Doesn't that beat going to heaven or hell anytime?
Of course at the core of it all, you still would have to be a good person because it benefits society as a whole.
"I dunno. Never thought of that. Heaven may not be as heavenly as they say. Or hell may not be as bad as they say either. Its subjective based on individual perceptions and what religion preaches, don't you think? At tht end of the day there may not even be a heaven or hell or even a judgement day. Whatever someone believes becomes their reality and whatever someone believes isn't doesn't become their reality. So to me, the question of heaven or hell doesn't become an issue cos it's subjective."
I would like to add to that by saying, heaven or hell is a term conceived by early preachers of religion to scare us into being good. In early times of lawlessness, it probably is beneficial for the church (I am assuming it derived from christianity, although I am not certain) to paint a picture of heaven being a place which is blissful and peaceful and pure and if you're good throughout your lifetime, maybe you 'deserve' a place there. It's like a get out of jail free ticket provided you are good.
Another picture they would paint in the mind of their devotees are, the picture of hell, all fiery and painful and people being tortured.
And the ultimate picture they paint in devotees minds are, a day of JUDGEMENT where people all stand before GOD to be told if you will take the gate that is marked HEAVEN or HELL.
Well, the reason why to me it's subjective is because the religion that I practice now doesn't scare me with the notion of having to choose where I want to end up. A side thought: if I am good and I end up in heaven, I may not want to be there cos of who I am and vice versa. The reason why I say so is, heaven may not be what people say it is. It could still be clean and tidy, with people wearing white robes, have wings, a halo over their heads and play the harp everyday and night and eat nice food, but what if I don't want that?
What if I still want to go to the casino and thrown some dices or booze all night long with my buddies? Or go to a horse race and place bets? I may not get to do that in heaven even if I had gained my right to be there.
I prefer the idea of rebirth. Being reborn over and over again and learn from different experiences until I have learn from past mistakes and experiences to the path of becoming enlightened. Doesn't that beat going to heaven or hell anytime?
Of course at the core of it all, you still would have to be a good person because it benefits society as a whole.
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
My take on the secret
The thing I am afraid of the most is not ghosts or spirits or dying but to end up poor or average. I know in this life I will not end up poor unless one day I hit my head on the wall, lose all my memory and end up not being able to work or live like a normal person. That way I'd probably end up poor, stupid and homeless. Which is much worst!
So currently as I still got my 5 senses, my 4 limbs and a sizable brain size capable of thinking like a normal person, my only fear is to end up average. Can you imagine the horror of being average? Not being able to realize your true potential? I wake up in cold sweat at night just thinking about it. Because of this deep fear of mine, the only option in my life is to end up rich and successful, not just rich and successful but filthy rich and mega successful with superstar fame! Sounds ludicrous?
This is my take about the secret to life. I'm sure I'm going to attract alot of negative energy because of this posting, but nobody knows me, so what the hell?
I don't believe in God. But I do believe in the universe and a higher power, but that doesn't mean I believe there is a God. There is nothing wrong believing in God. Its just that I don't believe in God, thats all. To me, God is an object, an object for people to praise when things go their way and when they achieve something great, an object to blame when something goes wrong, an object to hang on in desperate times, a glimmer and ray of hope. Does it really exists? We may not know as long as we are living.
This is my take on life. Life is all about energy flow. Everything in the universe happens as part of a plan, as part of a system that will keep on evolving and evolving till infinity. Some people call it karma, I call it energy and the flow of energy. We flow positive energy out, we attract positive energy. We flow negative energy out, we attract negative energy. It's like an invisible force field. We receive exactly what we receive.
It simply means, if we do good for people, people will in turn do good things for us. If we respect people, in turn people will respect us, if we appreciate people, people will appreciate us. However there is a catch... If we do good for people, the people we do good for may not do the same for us, but others will. It's the same for all other examples I have given. It's not in direct proportions. You may ask why? Well this is why... For example, we flow out positive energy to the recipient but the recipient may not be in the state to flow back the positive energy to u because they are in a state of negative energy. Thus, they are not in the 'position' to give back to u the same energy u have given to them.
However, another person who has the correct energy flow will flow it back to you. Maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow, it could be a year's time or 10 years time. It's as a response to the energy that you have flowed out to someone at a particular time.
Everything is about energy. Love is energy, passion is energy, hate is energy, determination is energy. Everything in this universe is about energy and the flow of energy. Like the movie Avatar, I believe that in this world too, everything and everyone is interconnected with the land. We humans probably have not learnt to master that skill yet, or probably some already have. I know I haven't.
Some call it the law of attraction. People rave about the secret. What is the secret? If it's a secret then why is everyone talking about it openly? To me, the secret is plain and simple, its all about energy and the flow of energy. If we flow out positive energy, we will attract positive energy and vice versa. There is nothing more complicated than that.
So currently as I still got my 5 senses, my 4 limbs and a sizable brain size capable of thinking like a normal person, my only fear is to end up average. Can you imagine the horror of being average? Not being able to realize your true potential? I wake up in cold sweat at night just thinking about it. Because of this deep fear of mine, the only option in my life is to end up rich and successful, not just rich and successful but filthy rich and mega successful with superstar fame! Sounds ludicrous?
This is my take about the secret to life. I'm sure I'm going to attract alot of negative energy because of this posting, but nobody knows me, so what the hell?
I don't believe in God. But I do believe in the universe and a higher power, but that doesn't mean I believe there is a God. There is nothing wrong believing in God. Its just that I don't believe in God, thats all. To me, God is an object, an object for people to praise when things go their way and when they achieve something great, an object to blame when something goes wrong, an object to hang on in desperate times, a glimmer and ray of hope. Does it really exists? We may not know as long as we are living.
This is my take on life. Life is all about energy flow. Everything in the universe happens as part of a plan, as part of a system that will keep on evolving and evolving till infinity. Some people call it karma, I call it energy and the flow of energy. We flow positive energy out, we attract positive energy. We flow negative energy out, we attract negative energy. It's like an invisible force field. We receive exactly what we receive.
It simply means, if we do good for people, people will in turn do good things for us. If we respect people, in turn people will respect us, if we appreciate people, people will appreciate us. However there is a catch... If we do good for people, the people we do good for may not do the same for us, but others will. It's the same for all other examples I have given. It's not in direct proportions. You may ask why? Well this is why... For example, we flow out positive energy to the recipient but the recipient may not be in the state to flow back the positive energy to u because they are in a state of negative energy. Thus, they are not in the 'position' to give back to u the same energy u have given to them.
However, another person who has the correct energy flow will flow it back to you. Maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow, it could be a year's time or 10 years time. It's as a response to the energy that you have flowed out to someone at a particular time.
Everything is about energy. Love is energy, passion is energy, hate is energy, determination is energy. Everything in this universe is about energy and the flow of energy. Like the movie Avatar, I believe that in this world too, everything and everyone is interconnected with the land. We humans probably have not learnt to master that skill yet, or probably some already have. I know I haven't.
Some call it the law of attraction. People rave about the secret. What is the secret? If it's a secret then why is everyone talking about it openly? To me, the secret is plain and simple, its all about energy and the flow of energy. If we flow out positive energy, we will attract positive energy and vice versa. There is nothing more complicated than that.
Saturday, June 19, 2010
Such a sad tragedy
I wish to extend my deepest condolences to the surviving family members. Here is an average everyday family in Malaysia, just like to rest of us, trying to live our lives in ways as normal as we can, hoping that our family is safe everyday from any harm that may come. Lives were snatched away selfishly in this tragedy.
To the surviving family members, the tragedy that befell your family I'm sure none of us would want to happen to our own, I for one would not want that too. I feel very sad every-time I hear news like this, news which could happen to anyone at anytime, even me myself and my family.
Although we are total strangers and will never get a chance to meet each other by design, I wish to extend my deepest condolences to you. What I can say is, both God and time will heal the pain this tragedy has caused. Your loved ones may be gone physically from this world, but they will live on forever in your memories and your hearts. One day when all of us are standing at the gates of heaven to be judged, may you have a beautiful reunion with your family members who have left this cruel and unkind world.
You will hug them and tell them how much u have missed them and they will smile back and tell you they are safe in God's hands and they have waited for you here all along. You will shed a tear and they will gently kiss it and make all the pain go away.
I always believe the reason our loved ones leave this world suddenly is becos God has a job for them and want them to assume their 'positions' on a short notice.
I pray to God that you will have strength to live another day, to do great things and touch lives in the process. I pray to God that you may have the strength to smile a smile that will light up the world, so that when you are gone, people will forever remember how your smile made a difference in their lives, made a difference in the world.
Psalm 23
The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. He maketh me to lie down in green pastures; He leadeth me beside the still waters. He restoreth my soul; He leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name’s sake. Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for Thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: Thou anointest my head with oil, my cup runneth over. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I shall dwell in the house of the Lord forever.
May your souls rest in peace, Mr. Roland Wee Seng Hock, Mr. Joash Wee, Ms. Jeslyn Wee, Ms. Jacinth Wee & Mdm.Lim Kim Boon. I do not know any of you and will not have a chance to know any of you but in your photos, your social networking profiles and sites dedicated to you, I can see that you were splendid and well liked people, people I'm sure I'd like to be friends with if you were alive.
Nevertheless, I want to dedicate this song you. Maybe we may have a chance to greet each other, the day we stand before our maker to be judged at the gates of heaven, in the kingdom of God.
When I get to where I'm going - Brad Paisley and Dolly Parton
When I get where I'm going
on the far side of the sky.
The first thing that I'm gonna do
Is spread my wings and fly.
I'm gonna land beside a lion,
and run my fingers through his mane.
Or I might find out what it's like
To ride a drop of rain
(Chorus:)
Yeah when I get where I'm going,
there'll be only happy tears.
I will shed the sins and struggles,
I have carried all these years.
And I'll leave my heart wide open,
I will love and have no fear.
Yeah when I get where I'm going,
Don't cry for me down here.
I'm gonna walk with my grandaddy,
and he'll match me step for step,
and I'll tell him how I missed him,
every minute since he left.
Then I'll hug his neck.
(Chorus)
So much pain and so much darkness,
in this world we stumble through.
All these questions, I can't answer,
so much work to do.
But when I get where I'm going,
and I see my Maker's face.
I'll stand forever in the light,
of His amazing grace.
Yeah when I get where I'm going,
Yeah when I get where I'm going,
there'll be only happy tears.
Hallelujah!
I will love and have no fear.
When I get where I'm going.
Yeah when I get where I'm going.
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I bid you Au Voir~!
David Geh
To the surviving family members, the tragedy that befell your family I'm sure none of us would want to happen to our own, I for one would not want that too. I feel very sad every-time I hear news like this, news which could happen to anyone at anytime, even me myself and my family.
Although we are total strangers and will never get a chance to meet each other by design, I wish to extend my deepest condolences to you. What I can say is, both God and time will heal the pain this tragedy has caused. Your loved ones may be gone physically from this world, but they will live on forever in your memories and your hearts. One day when all of us are standing at the gates of heaven to be judged, may you have a beautiful reunion with your family members who have left this cruel and unkind world.
You will hug them and tell them how much u have missed them and they will smile back and tell you they are safe in God's hands and they have waited for you here all along. You will shed a tear and they will gently kiss it and make all the pain go away.
I always believe the reason our loved ones leave this world suddenly is becos God has a job for them and want them to assume their 'positions' on a short notice.
I pray to God that you will have strength to live another day, to do great things and touch lives in the process. I pray to God that you may have the strength to smile a smile that will light up the world, so that when you are gone, people will forever remember how your smile made a difference in their lives, made a difference in the world.
Psalm 23
The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. He maketh me to lie down in green pastures; He leadeth me beside the still waters. He restoreth my soul; He leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name’s sake. Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for Thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: Thou anointest my head with oil, my cup runneth over. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I shall dwell in the house of the Lord forever.
May your souls rest in peace, Mr. Roland Wee Seng Hock, Mr. Joash Wee, Ms. Jeslyn Wee, Ms. Jacinth Wee & Mdm.Lim Kim Boon. I do not know any of you and will not have a chance to know any of you but in your photos, your social networking profiles and sites dedicated to you, I can see that you were splendid and well liked people, people I'm sure I'd like to be friends with if you were alive.
Nevertheless, I want to dedicate this song you. Maybe we may have a chance to greet each other, the day we stand before our maker to be judged at the gates of heaven, in the kingdom of God.
When I get to where I'm going - Brad Paisley and Dolly Parton
When I get where I'm going
on the far side of the sky.
The first thing that I'm gonna do
Is spread my wings and fly.
I'm gonna land beside a lion,
and run my fingers through his mane.
Or I might find out what it's like
To ride a drop of rain
(Chorus:)
Yeah when I get where I'm going,
there'll be only happy tears.
I will shed the sins and struggles,
I have carried all these years.
And I'll leave my heart wide open,
I will love and have no fear.
Yeah when I get where I'm going,
Don't cry for me down here.
I'm gonna walk with my grandaddy,
and he'll match me step for step,
and I'll tell him how I missed him,
every minute since he left.
Then I'll hug his neck.
(Chorus)
So much pain and so much darkness,
in this world we stumble through.
All these questions, I can't answer,
so much work to do.
But when I get where I'm going,
and I see my Maker's face.
I'll stand forever in the light,
of His amazing grace.
Yeah when I get where I'm going,
Yeah when I get where I'm going,
there'll be only happy tears.
Hallelujah!
I will love and have no fear.
When I get where I'm going.
Yeah when I get where I'm going.
---
I bid you Au Voir~!
David Geh
Saturday, June 05, 2010
Happy Birthday to the King!
Happy Birthday to the King! The DYMM SPB YDP AGONG to be precise. It stands for Duli Yang Maha Mulia Seri Paduka Baginda Yang Di-Pertuan Agong, which I reckon would translate to His Royal Highness The King of Malaysia.
Now, the only 2 other places (other than Malaysia) I have lived in my life are Singapore and Australia and given the short time I have been around in this earth, I reckon it's quite something, considering within this 3 countries, I have stayed in around 30 different houses in the short 3 decades + 3 years of my life. Amongst the 3 countries I have lived in, I reckon Malaysia is one the most unique, not because I was born here, but the country itself to me is rather special. Why, it's one of the few countries in the world where you have a King as a ruler of the land.
I hear people talking everyday bout how bad the country is being run, how a certain political party is doing this to a certain race and not doing that for another race, personally I'm not really bothered about all that. To me, I have never been given an unfair chance or have been treated unfairly or exploited ever before while living in Malaysia. Well, sometimes you may come across a case or two about someone being treated unfairly or needs not being taken care of hey, its our job to look out for number one, not anybody else.
I truly love my country, never have any place given me the opportunities to be who I want and do what I want (within the boundaries of the law of course).
This is taken from Wikipedia.org lest we forget:
BAHAWASANYA NEGARA KITA MALAYSIA mendukung cita-cita hendak :
mencapai perpaduan yang lebih erat di kalangan seluruh masyarakatnya ;
memelihara satu cara hidup demokratik ;
mencipta satu masyarakat adil di mana kemakmuran Negara akan dapat dinikmati bersama secara adil dan saksama ;
menjamin satu cara liberal terhadap tradisi-tradisi kebudayaannya yang kaya dan berbagai corak ;
dan
membina satu masyarakat progresif yang akan menggunakan sains dan teknologi moden.
MAKA KAMI, rakyat Malaysia, berikrar akan menumpukan seluruh tenaga dan usaha kami untuk mencapai cita-cita tersebut berdasarkan atas prinsip-prinsip yang berikut :
KEPERCAYAAN KEPADA TUHAN (Belief in God)
KESETIAAN KEPADA RAJA DAN NEGARA (Loyalty to King and Country)
KELUHURAN PERLEMBAGAAN (Upholding the constitution)
KEDAULATAN UNDANG-UNDANG (Rule of Law)
KESOPANAN DAN KESUSILAAN (Good Behavior and Morality)
I truly believe that if all of us are able to follow the rukun negara, there will be less crime, less hatred, less chaos and more harmony, peace and unity in our land.
MALAYSIA, I LOVE YOU!
Now, the only 2 other places (other than Malaysia) I have lived in my life are Singapore and Australia and given the short time I have been around in this earth, I reckon it's quite something, considering within this 3 countries, I have stayed in around 30 different houses in the short 3 decades + 3 years of my life. Amongst the 3 countries I have lived in, I reckon Malaysia is one the most unique, not because I was born here, but the country itself to me is rather special. Why, it's one of the few countries in the world where you have a King as a ruler of the land.
I hear people talking everyday bout how bad the country is being run, how a certain political party is doing this to a certain race and not doing that for another race, personally I'm not really bothered about all that. To me, I have never been given an unfair chance or have been treated unfairly or exploited ever before while living in Malaysia. Well, sometimes you may come across a case or two about someone being treated unfairly or needs not being taken care of hey, its our job to look out for number one, not anybody else.
I truly love my country, never have any place given me the opportunities to be who I want and do what I want (within the boundaries of the law of course).
This is taken from Wikipedia.org lest we forget:
BAHAWASANYA NEGARA KITA MALAYSIA mendukung cita-cita hendak :
mencapai perpaduan yang lebih erat di kalangan seluruh masyarakatnya ;
memelihara satu cara hidup demokratik ;
mencipta satu masyarakat adil di mana kemakmuran Negara akan dapat dinikmati bersama secara adil dan saksama ;
menjamin satu cara liberal terhadap tradisi-tradisi kebudayaannya yang kaya dan berbagai corak ;
dan
membina satu masyarakat progresif yang akan menggunakan sains dan teknologi moden.
MAKA KAMI, rakyat Malaysia, berikrar akan menumpukan seluruh tenaga dan usaha kami untuk mencapai cita-cita tersebut berdasarkan atas prinsip-prinsip yang berikut :
KEPERCAYAAN KEPADA TUHAN (Belief in God)
KESETIAAN KEPADA RAJA DAN NEGARA (Loyalty to King and Country)
KELUHURAN PERLEMBAGAAN (Upholding the constitution)
KEDAULATAN UNDANG-UNDANG (Rule of Law)
KESOPANAN DAN KESUSILAAN (Good Behavior and Morality)
I truly believe that if all of us are able to follow the rukun negara, there will be less crime, less hatred, less chaos and more harmony, peace and unity in our land.
MALAYSIA, I LOVE YOU!
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Reliving nostalgic memories
I was at Metropolitan College this afternoon to meet Ronald, my MBA thesis supervisor and it was our first meeting. It was quite a hot day and I had to walk quite far cos being a cheapskate, I decided to park my car at the housing area in SS14 to save on parking fees and not get stuck in the mad jam finding a parking space in SS15.
Despite the hot sun and the long walk from SS14 to Metropolitan College, I was actually quite excited. Why? Because I'm revisiting the college after about 13 years. I did my twinning program there in 1996-97 right after my pre-u in International College, Penang. One of the reasons it was of fond memories for me was because that was my first time I was out living on my own and my first time living outside my hometown in KL! Well, not really KL but in PJ.
The college definitely had a different feel from the time I studied there. It's now owned and operated by Laureate International, the education group that also owns Inti, MIM-Inti and PJCad Colleges. The students definitely looked a world of difference from the time I studied there. Back then there were no international students and many local students look much much more fashionable from 13 years ago!
Walking back to my car a distance away from the college after my meeting with my supervisor, I couldn't help but to reminisce about my Metropolitan College student life. I had never in my wildest dreams expect that 13 years later I could achieve so much in life. I have came so far from my simple student life to who I am today, having achieved everything I have ever dreamed of when I was a broke student, having so much to thank God for and so much to look forward to in the future.
I also remembered all the friends I have made back then and feel really thankful that I still keep in touch with some of them, who have been by my side thru thick and thin. Our life back in college were fun and full of surprises but best of all, we didn't have to worry about anything at all except get good grades and graduate.
As I reached my car, I noticed that I actually took the time to look around and time wasn't rushing by me like it used to be back in 1997. I guess back then as a student I was in a hurry to finish my studies and become somebody and best of all make money to do the things I wanna do and achieve all that I could.
Now that I did, I'm glad I could walk slower and actually take in the scenery around me. My journey hasn't ended yet and there are miles of road ahead of me. I am thankful that I made it safely all the way here. Now I can look forward to the future knowing that I am in good hands, God's hands.
Despite the hot sun and the long walk from SS14 to Metropolitan College, I was actually quite excited. Why? Because I'm revisiting the college after about 13 years. I did my twinning program there in 1996-97 right after my pre-u in International College, Penang. One of the reasons it was of fond memories for me was because that was my first time I was out living on my own and my first time living outside my hometown in KL! Well, not really KL but in PJ.
The college definitely had a different feel from the time I studied there. It's now owned and operated by Laureate International, the education group that also owns Inti, MIM-Inti and PJCad Colleges. The students definitely looked a world of difference from the time I studied there. Back then there were no international students and many local students look much much more fashionable from 13 years ago!
Walking back to my car a distance away from the college after my meeting with my supervisor, I couldn't help but to reminisce about my Metropolitan College student life. I had never in my wildest dreams expect that 13 years later I could achieve so much in life. I have came so far from my simple student life to who I am today, having achieved everything I have ever dreamed of when I was a broke student, having so much to thank God for and so much to look forward to in the future.
I also remembered all the friends I have made back then and feel really thankful that I still keep in touch with some of them, who have been by my side thru thick and thin. Our life back in college were fun and full of surprises but best of all, we didn't have to worry about anything at all except get good grades and graduate.
As I reached my car, I noticed that I actually took the time to look around and time wasn't rushing by me like it used to be back in 1997. I guess back then as a student I was in a hurry to finish my studies and become somebody and best of all make money to do the things I wanna do and achieve all that I could.
Now that I did, I'm glad I could walk slower and actually take in the scenery around me. My journey hasn't ended yet and there are miles of road ahead of me. I am thankful that I made it safely all the way here. Now I can look forward to the future knowing that I am in good hands, God's hands.
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Living for the moment
I have never given much of a thought to living for the moment till recently. Looking back in the past, I sometimes relive memories which were fond to me as if they were real and is happening all over again. Those are good memories of course. As humans we tend to block out the memories that we don't want to and only retain those we want.
I somehow relive memories from the past when thinking of how bad my situation is in the present. Or so I think (it's bad). What has kept my happy memories happy all these years? I gradually came to a realization that, those memories were happy ones because at that time I lived in the moment. Enjoying every happy moment made a permanent impact in my mind.
Many a times we feel lousy or down and think that tomorrow will be a better day or next month or next year, we are not living in the moment, it's more like living for tomorrow or living for the future. I for one am guilty for that sometimes. I always compare my life now for what may be or what could be in the future and tend to 'fast forward' my life to the desired moment in the future which I think my life will be better or brighter. Every time I do that the movie Click flashes to mind. It's like taking a remote control you got from Bed and Beyond and pressing the fast forward button to the future.
Many people say, yesterday is the past, tomorrow is the future, today is a gift, thats why it's called the present. I'm pretty sure many people (yours truly included) go thru the motions in life on automatic mode, more like drifting through life without any emotions, without any thought and without any care. I'm sure you go thru that as well, ever had a day where you forgot which day of the month it was? Or was so deep in thought that you didn't realize how you drove yourself to work and arrived at your destination? Thinking is hard, that is why so many people choose not to engage in it. After all, why waste time thinking when you can live automatically?
We work hard because we don't want to end up miserable and poor living in a cardboard box under a bridge or a freeway. But in the process of working hard, we achieve everything we want, a big house, a big car and the more earthly possessions we have, one fine day we wake up and realize... whats the point in all that when it all means nothing to us? We, as humans have failed to live in the moment. The ultimate entitlement, luxury and enjoyment that has been granted to anyone and everyone living on this planet which is life and we, in the process of chasing material luxuries and enjoyments have failed to use this entitlement which is to live.
There's an article on http://www.selfgrowth.com/articles/Mathews2.html by Joseph Mathews called 'The Power of The Present Moment' and inside that article there's a line that says 'Death creates a deadline, a deadline creates an urgency, urgency creates action and action produces results'. I want to ask a question. Is our urgency to die or to live? Because as we speed thru life without living it, then our urgency is probably to die. But if we enjoy every moment of our lives and live it to the fullest, then and maybe then, our urgency is to live.
After realizing all this, I realized that my whole life, 33 years of it has been spent planning for some time in the future where I think I'm going to be happy, comfortable and have achieved my dreams without even realizing that maybe now I can be happy, or now I am comfortable or now I have achieved everything I have ever wanted in life. Well, because I have been speeding thru life planning, scheming and preparing for a brighter future, I intend to slow down and accept the fact that to live in the present moment is much more rewarding than an uncertain future.
Of course the whole process of slowing down and changing pace may take time, weeks, months and even years but I'm sure that once it's finally achieved I may see things in a whole different light. Just like when the mist clears and we can 'see the forest for the trees' I wish to live my life to the fullest for the moment.
I somehow relive memories from the past when thinking of how bad my situation is in the present. Or so I think (it's bad). What has kept my happy memories happy all these years? I gradually came to a realization that, those memories were happy ones because at that time I lived in the moment. Enjoying every happy moment made a permanent impact in my mind.
Many a times we feel lousy or down and think that tomorrow will be a better day or next month or next year, we are not living in the moment, it's more like living for tomorrow or living for the future. I for one am guilty for that sometimes. I always compare my life now for what may be or what could be in the future and tend to 'fast forward' my life to the desired moment in the future which I think my life will be better or brighter. Every time I do that the movie Click flashes to mind. It's like taking a remote control you got from Bed and Beyond and pressing the fast forward button to the future.
Many people say, yesterday is the past, tomorrow is the future, today is a gift, thats why it's called the present. I'm pretty sure many people (yours truly included) go thru the motions in life on automatic mode, more like drifting through life without any emotions, without any thought and without any care. I'm sure you go thru that as well, ever had a day where you forgot which day of the month it was? Or was so deep in thought that you didn't realize how you drove yourself to work and arrived at your destination? Thinking is hard, that is why so many people choose not to engage in it. After all, why waste time thinking when you can live automatically?
We work hard because we don't want to end up miserable and poor living in a cardboard box under a bridge or a freeway. But in the process of working hard, we achieve everything we want, a big house, a big car and the more earthly possessions we have, one fine day we wake up and realize... whats the point in all that when it all means nothing to us? We, as humans have failed to live in the moment. The ultimate entitlement, luxury and enjoyment that has been granted to anyone and everyone living on this planet which is life and we, in the process of chasing material luxuries and enjoyments have failed to use this entitlement which is to live.
There's an article on http://www.selfgrowth.com/articles/Mathews2.html by Joseph Mathews called 'The Power of The Present Moment' and inside that article there's a line that says 'Death creates a deadline, a deadline creates an urgency, urgency creates action and action produces results'. I want to ask a question. Is our urgency to die or to live? Because as we speed thru life without living it, then our urgency is probably to die. But if we enjoy every moment of our lives and live it to the fullest, then and maybe then, our urgency is to live.
After realizing all this, I realized that my whole life, 33 years of it has been spent planning for some time in the future where I think I'm going to be happy, comfortable and have achieved my dreams without even realizing that maybe now I can be happy, or now I am comfortable or now I have achieved everything I have ever wanted in life. Well, because I have been speeding thru life planning, scheming and preparing for a brighter future, I intend to slow down and accept the fact that to live in the present moment is much more rewarding than an uncertain future.
Of course the whole process of slowing down and changing pace may take time, weeks, months and even years but I'm sure that once it's finally achieved I may see things in a whole different light. Just like when the mist clears and we can 'see the forest for the trees' I wish to live my life to the fullest for the moment.
Tuesday, February 02, 2010
Feeling shitty for the past week
I dunno why but for the past week I was feeling kinda shitty for no particular reason. My facebook microblogs reads: "Suddenly I'm just sick, sick of everything that is going on around me. Every single thing irritates the heck out of me, is it my problem or what? Maybe I have been keeping everything inside my heart all this while and now everything is starting to blow up. Everything seems wrong and out of place. I feel really feel trapped. There must be something more than this, I know there must be."
Sounds bad huh? A quick thinking friend suggested 'mid life crisis' and I was like, "What the heck?" I'm turn 33 in 2010! So I googled "Mid life crisis" and the 2nd search result caught my eye. Well the website particularly. It read divorcesupport.about.com so like a cat, I curiously clicked on it knowing well that I have never been married nor am I going thru a mid life crisis.
Here's the answer the website gave:
A midlife crisis is experienced between the ages of 40 and 60. It was first identified by the psychologist Carl Jung and is a normal part of the maturing process. Most people will experience some form of emotional transition during that time of life. A transition that might cause you to take stock in where you are in life and make some needed adjustments to the way you live your life. Most seem to come through the process smoothly without making major life changes.
For some, a midlife crisis is more complicated. It can be an uncomfortable time emotionally which can lead to depression and the need for psychotherapy. Those who have a hard time with this transitional stage might experience a range of feelings such as:
Unhappiness with life and the lifestyle that may have provided them with happiness for many years. Boredom with people and things that may have been of interest to them before. Feeling a need for adventure and change. Questioning the choices, they have made in their lives and the validity of decisions they made years before. Confusion about who they are and where they are going. Anger at their spouse and blame for feeling tied down. Unable to make decisions about where they want to go with their life. Doubt that they ever loved their spouse and resentment over the marriage. A desire for a new and passionate, intimate relationship.
All those stuff were in bullet format but became like that when I cut and paste it into my posting, well sorry and thank u divorcesupport.about.com for the intriguing answer above! The moment my eyes caught sight of 40-60 I immediately felt a sense of relief and peace. 40-60!!! thats 7 yrs away.
Then I thought it might have something to do with me adjusting to my new job, so I spent the next few days talking to all the colleagues in my department to find out the 'root' of my resentment to the job I am performing or my dissatisfaction. To my surprise, I felt better after that! Not 100% better tho, but a little better. Also to those who gave me tips and advice on my facebook microblog shoutout, some of the actually helped! talk about group therapy! lol!
Today after feeling much better, my facebook shoutout reads " U know what guys, you're right! wallowing in self pity is a waste of perfectly good and productive time. It's time to get up and do something about it. Life is just too short to be a pathetic wanker! Better be a good for something wanker than a good for nothing one."
How's that sound? A good for something wanker! Now what about that huh?
Sounds bad huh? A quick thinking friend suggested 'mid life crisis' and I was like, "What the heck?" I'm turn 33 in 2010! So I googled "Mid life crisis" and the 2nd search result caught my eye. Well the website particularly. It read divorcesupport.about.com so like a cat, I curiously clicked on it knowing well that I have never been married nor am I going thru a mid life crisis.
Here's the answer the website gave:
A midlife crisis is experienced between the ages of 40 and 60. It was first identified by the psychologist Carl Jung and is a normal part of the maturing process. Most people will experience some form of emotional transition during that time of life. A transition that might cause you to take stock in where you are in life and make some needed adjustments to the way you live your life. Most seem to come through the process smoothly without making major life changes.
For some, a midlife crisis is more complicated. It can be an uncomfortable time emotionally which can lead to depression and the need for psychotherapy. Those who have a hard time with this transitional stage might experience a range of feelings such as:
Unhappiness with life and the lifestyle that may have provided them with happiness for many years. Boredom with people and things that may have been of interest to them before. Feeling a need for adventure and change. Questioning the choices, they have made in their lives and the validity of decisions they made years before. Confusion about who they are and where they are going. Anger at their spouse and blame for feeling tied down. Unable to make decisions about where they want to go with their life. Doubt that they ever loved their spouse and resentment over the marriage. A desire for a new and passionate, intimate relationship.
All those stuff were in bullet format but became like that when I cut and paste it into my posting, well sorry and thank u divorcesupport.about.com for the intriguing answer above! The moment my eyes caught sight of 40-60 I immediately felt a sense of relief and peace. 40-60!!! thats 7 yrs away.
Then I thought it might have something to do with me adjusting to my new job, so I spent the next few days talking to all the colleagues in my department to find out the 'root' of my resentment to the job I am performing or my dissatisfaction. To my surprise, I felt better after that! Not 100% better tho, but a little better. Also to those who gave me tips and advice on my facebook microblog shoutout, some of the actually helped! talk about group therapy! lol!
Today after feeling much better, my facebook shoutout reads " U know what guys, you're right! wallowing in self pity is a waste of perfectly good and productive time. It's time to get up and do something about it. Life is just too short to be a pathetic wanker! Better be a good for something wanker than a good for nothing one."
How's that sound? A good for something wanker! Now what about that huh?
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
A typical day?
The principal for the product I'm managing came down from Singapore today with a new guy whom I'm supposed to be working closely with for the entire duration I'm going to be employed in this company. Took them out to Tesco at Mutiara Damansara for lunch with my Division Manager and spent the next hour after a great lunch at Mdm Lim's Kitchen walking around getting a feel of their cleaning operations, type of flooring etc.
On the way back after getting my ticket at the Kota Damansara toll, Ignatius asked me something and I turned around to answer him. At the exact time, I took the wrong turning, supposed to turn right and I went and turn left. The road leads to Sg Buloh and Ipoh. So he jokingly asked me "Are we going to Ipoh for dinner now?" My boss flashed me a sarcastic smile and for the next half an hour they were engaged in a conversation about how men can't multitask. Thank God for Guthrie Corridor Expressway or I would have to use the long way back to Shah Alam on a sleepy Wednesday after a big meal!
I guess I must have been sleepy or something cos when I reached home, I reversed right into the metal gate at the office carpark and my rear tail lamp which was already cracked from my reverse into a lamp-post action last year cracked a further 2 pieces and now one is missing! It probably shows that after 15 years of driving, I'm still bad at it. (hears clapping and cheering)
Well the only consolation about it was that at 5:30 when the siren went off I was already at the punch card machine getting ready to shoot off and join the usual gang on the highway burning fuel and wearing off my brake pads. Yup, the 1 hour crawl home.
Oh well, you can't have good days everyday right? This is probably one of my not so good ones!
On the way back after getting my ticket at the Kota Damansara toll, Ignatius asked me something and I turned around to answer him. At the exact time, I took the wrong turning, supposed to turn right and I went and turn left. The road leads to Sg Buloh and Ipoh. So he jokingly asked me "Are we going to Ipoh for dinner now?" My boss flashed me a sarcastic smile and for the next half an hour they were engaged in a conversation about how men can't multitask. Thank God for Guthrie Corridor Expressway or I would have to use the long way back to Shah Alam on a sleepy Wednesday after a big meal!
I guess I must have been sleepy or something cos when I reached home, I reversed right into the metal gate at the office carpark and my rear tail lamp which was already cracked from my reverse into a lamp-post action last year cracked a further 2 pieces and now one is missing! It probably shows that after 15 years of driving, I'm still bad at it. (hears clapping and cheering)
Well the only consolation about it was that at 5:30 when the siren went off I was already at the punch card machine getting ready to shoot off and join the usual gang on the highway burning fuel and wearing off my brake pads. Yup, the 1 hour crawl home.
Oh well, you can't have good days everyday right? This is probably one of my not so good ones!
Thursday, January 07, 2010
Thus all this garbage!
To me, the first week after the first month on your job is the toughest anyone who just started a new job has to go thru. This week is my first week after the first month I worked for this new company. I still can't get used to seeing rows and rows of forklifts everywhere and they're already planning to expand to the building next door!
To tell you the truth, I'm pretty lost about how I'm supposed to go about this job. The position states 'manager' but I'm expected to go out and meet clients and do sales calls just like the rest of the salespeople in the office and the difference is, they get commission for every expensive equipment they sell and I don't. Of course the boss promised me a big fat bonus and an increment if I managed to hit the ridiculous target I set for myself (its like shooting yourself in the foot if you ask me!)
For someone who have never sold expensive industrial equipment before, it was rather brave of me to set such a high target. But of course we have to justify the salary we are getting by setting high objectives to achieve so that management will see us in a positive light in the future right?
Earlier I was at a forum and one of the members posted something taken from Thomas Wolfe "You have reached the pinnacle of success when you become uninterested in money, compliments and publicity" I quite agree with that quote but the problem is, I'm interested in money, publicity and most of all compliments, but not in a salaried employment setting. How gratifying is it to have all that when you still have drag your ass up at 6 in the morning to go in d office by 8 to see black sulky faces all day long until 5:30pm and get stucked in a jam just to get home?
Something just ain't right if it's gratifying isn't it? So can someone say they have reached the pinnacle of success in their job or career? I wonder what defines success when it comes to being an employee?
I don't know if my feeling like this is a dead-end is part of the slow start or learning curve which I have to endure as part of the start of a new career for me or is it part of something more long term and I may have to change my attitude towards employment. I'm sure there are certain satisfactions and gratifications that come along with it and I haven't found it yet. I wonder...
When any employee starts working in a company they are given an employee handbook which among other things tells them what they should or shouldn't do, what they should or shouldn't wear to work and many other things. Why aren't we given a booklet that tells us how we should feel and react towards work and what we should do when we hit a brick wall or stall?
Many years ago I flipped the bible and there was a page which tells you to go to which chapter or page when you are feeling a certain way, like if you are feeling suicidal or depressed, you should flip here and the words will 'talk-to-you' and some how you would feel better.
Well maybe my mood is just down today, thus all this garbage!
To tell you the truth, I'm pretty lost about how I'm supposed to go about this job. The position states 'manager' but I'm expected to go out and meet clients and do sales calls just like the rest of the salespeople in the office and the difference is, they get commission for every expensive equipment they sell and I don't. Of course the boss promised me a big fat bonus and an increment if I managed to hit the ridiculous target I set for myself (its like shooting yourself in the foot if you ask me!)
For someone who have never sold expensive industrial equipment before, it was rather brave of me to set such a high target. But of course we have to justify the salary we are getting by setting high objectives to achieve so that management will see us in a positive light in the future right?
Earlier I was at a forum and one of the members posted something taken from Thomas Wolfe "You have reached the pinnacle of success when you become uninterested in money, compliments and publicity" I quite agree with that quote but the problem is, I'm interested in money, publicity and most of all compliments, but not in a salaried employment setting. How gratifying is it to have all that when you still have drag your ass up at 6 in the morning to go in d office by 8 to see black sulky faces all day long until 5:30pm and get stucked in a jam just to get home?
Something just ain't right if it's gratifying isn't it? So can someone say they have reached the pinnacle of success in their job or career? I wonder what defines success when it comes to being an employee?
I don't know if my feeling like this is a dead-end is part of the slow start or learning curve which I have to endure as part of the start of a new career for me or is it part of something more long term and I may have to change my attitude towards employment. I'm sure there are certain satisfactions and gratifications that come along with it and I haven't found it yet. I wonder...
When any employee starts working in a company they are given an employee handbook which among other things tells them what they should or shouldn't do, what they should or shouldn't wear to work and many other things. Why aren't we given a booklet that tells us how we should feel and react towards work and what we should do when we hit a brick wall or stall?
Many years ago I flipped the bible and there was a page which tells you to go to which chapter or page when you are feeling a certain way, like if you are feeling suicidal or depressed, you should flip here and the words will 'talk-to-you' and some how you would feel better.
Well maybe my mood is just down today, thus all this garbage!
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