To me, the first week after the first month on your job is the toughest anyone who just started a new job has to go thru. This week is my first week after the first month I worked for this new company. I still can't get used to seeing rows and rows of forklifts everywhere and they're already planning to expand to the building next door!
To tell you the truth, I'm pretty lost about how I'm supposed to go about this job. The position states 'manager' but I'm expected to go out and meet clients and do sales calls just like the rest of the salespeople in the office and the difference is, they get commission for every expensive equipment they sell and I don't. Of course the boss promised me a big fat bonus and an increment if I managed to hit the ridiculous target I set for myself (its like shooting yourself in the foot if you ask me!)
For someone who have never sold expensive industrial equipment before, it was rather brave of me to set such a high target. But of course we have to justify the salary we are getting by setting high objectives to achieve so that management will see us in a positive light in the future right?
Earlier I was at a forum and one of the members posted something taken from Thomas Wolfe "You have reached the pinnacle of success when you become uninterested in money, compliments and publicity" I quite agree with that quote but the problem is, I'm interested in money, publicity and most of all compliments, but not in a salaried employment setting. How gratifying is it to have all that when you still have drag your ass up at 6 in the morning to go in d office by 8 to see black sulky faces all day long until 5:30pm and get stucked in a jam just to get home?
Something just ain't right if it's gratifying isn't it? So can someone say they have reached the pinnacle of success in their job or career? I wonder what defines success when it comes to being an employee?
I don't know if my feeling like this is a dead-end is part of the slow start or learning curve which I have to endure as part of the start of a new career for me or is it part of something more long term and I may have to change my attitude towards employment. I'm sure there are certain satisfactions and gratifications that come along with it and I haven't found it yet. I wonder...
When any employee starts working in a company they are given an employee handbook which among other things tells them what they should or shouldn't do, what they should or shouldn't wear to work and many other things. Why aren't we given a booklet that tells us how we should feel and react towards work and what we should do when we hit a brick wall or stall?
Many years ago I flipped the bible and there was a page which tells you to go to which chapter or page when you are feeling a certain way, like if you are feeling suicidal or depressed, you should flip here and the words will 'talk-to-you' and some how you would feel better.
Well maybe my mood is just down today, thus all this garbage!
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